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I’m a wordsmith
A poem from my “poetry journal” in Jim Papworth’s class, 1995 -
Please don’t vomit, Gabriel
and don’t forget your hat
Albert will be along soon
to put a bullet in your head
Please don’t kill John, Gabirel
he can’t be all that bad and
even though he double-crossed
you
he says he won’t come back
“Please,” he says, “Have a heart”
you smile and say, “What heart?”
and Bang!
He’s dead.
Thank you. Thank you very much.
Springy Springtime! – Sublime Stitching Tote

Springy Springtime! – Sublime Stitching Tote
Originally uploaded by Sublime Stitching
I looooooooooooove Sublime Stitching to the max.
Undecided and oldening before your very eyes
I’m still undecided about a store name, but I’m definitely loving the suggestions made by my wonderful friends.Thanks guys!
The problem is that I’m one of “those” people. I become extremely uncomfortable whenever I’m called upon to “toot my own horn,” as they say – so even the idea of making a store and presuming that anyone would want to pay me money for something I made, is completely off the charts for me.
That said – I’m doing that shit. I have to. I love my job, but the money, it just isn’t cutting it. Oh, lordy how it isn’t cutting it.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately (“I’m tryin’ ta’ think, but nuthin’ happens”) about getting older and how I have heretofor been unwilling to deal with, handle, admit the fact that yes, I too am aging. *GASP*
My grand illusion of pigtails and teen-style came crashing down yesterday when I caught a bit of a new infomercial for Heidi Klum’s new skin care line, “In an Instant.” I watched at least 40 minutes before realizing, whoa! I just spend 40 minutes of my life watching an infomercial. It took much less time to sell me on the product; a finely tuned scientific wonder that INSTANTLY “erases” your wrinkles!! Magic, I thought – I mean, if Heidi Klum says so, it must be true, right? She’s so smiley and trustworthy and GORGEOUS. Surely she wouldn’t lie to me…and who in their right mind wouldn’t want to look (even just a little) like Heidi?
I swear on my life, if I had $40 in my bank account, I would have spent it all on this magical snake oil. That’s how hooked I was.
Then it hit me – I care about the tiny lines developing around my eyes – I’m worried about looking, becoming older. It’s probably stupid that I’m so shocked, but the thing is, I never thought I’d care. I’ve always admired older women who shunned plastic surgery and grew old, gracefully, beautifuly, but for some reason when it comes to myself, I just can’t see it. I feel like I’m going to go from youngish looking to 90 in 24 hours.
Ca-razy. I get it. I know.
P.S. When I tried to add tags to this post if kept trying to force me to choose, “vagina.” So – VAGINA!!
Gah!
Life is really, really kicking my ass today. I’m walking around like a chubby, little time bomb just waiting to “pop off” (as Tanisha would say).
Anyway, I dont’ want to burden you with all my hocky-pucky (as my friend Lisa would say).
The real reason I’m blogging is that I need your help, dear readers. – I’m going to start an Etsy shop, featuring some design and art work, but I’ve been staring at my cursor for over an hour on the “name of your store” field.
Help?! I mean, I could uncreatively just use Lateshoes again, but is that totally weird? Am I just totally weird? Help!
“…and it’s like…duh, ya know?”
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Too tired to type out my thoughts about these videos. I hope this will suffice: each of these bands/ ladies got me through my twenties and helped me to be brave in some way or another.
I kind of miss the “grrl style” revolution. I have to say.
I know, enough with the videos already, but seriously – B.A.G. IS bringing Sexy Back…
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zxUQjiS6SFY]
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AejCTVX9nbc]
Ahhhh, God bless the fan video montage.

